Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Words on Wednesday: homeschooling...

It's been forever since I have been consistant about writing in here, and that makes me sad. 
However, there are many wonderful reasons that I have been too busy to get on here.  I can name seven of them right of the top of my head.. hehe... but besides the children, there has been teaching.
 Let me just say one thing... I love teaching.  The girls I have in my class, 2nd - 5th grade, are so awesome.  Although I feel like I am crazy busy, I wouldn't want to do anything else right now.  I feel so blessed to get to be apart of all of their little lives. 
The experience I am gaining from lesson planning (even if it's only one class) has helped build some confidence for future homeschooling. 
The way I see it is, homeschooling will be easier, and harder than what I am doing now.  At least I think so.  Can't say from experience.  The part I'd imagine that would be harder would be lesson planning for every class... and managing many grade levels... and doing it with my own kids might be a tad more difficult than someone elses.  Being "stuck in the house" will be a bit challenging, because I seem to fall in that rut when we are all home, I don't get us out like I should.  I will have to be organized and have a schedule... eek... and follow it!  That will be hard.
The good thing, is the hard part isn't impossible and I feel that through the experience I will gain character, I'll have to! We'll grow as a family.  Excited about that.
Now for the easier part.... there's a small little thing called "getting seven children out the door, fully dressed, fed, hair fixed, lunches packed, behavior sheets signed, hats-gloves-scarves (in the winter), shoes, backpacks, jackets... with out tears and earlier in the morning than I want to be rushing out the door" that I don't particularly enjoy.  Not having to do that... well, that'd be easier.  Before anyone says, you can get most of that stuff ready the night before...  I do.  It's still stressful.  Worth it, but stressful. 
Another easier thing.  Since I do have smaller children, it would be nice to schedule school around nap and quiet times, or just during parts of the day that would make more sense.  We will school year around, so if we don't get everything done in a day (although I will always try) it's ok.  And *if* I have another baby, although that is not the plan at this point... then I won't be having to do (see above) with eight children, one being a newborn every morning.. haha... we could take a break for a bit.  Also, having them in the classroom with me while I teach can be a tad overwhelming at times.  I love having them with me, but the hard part would be that we are on a rigid schedule, I can't just stop teaching to deal with a kid and resume at a better time.  I could do that at home.
My children will get a chance to learn about taking care of a home... right now with the hectic schedule there is not much time for them to do chores.  Surprisingly, Katie is actually looking forward to that part.  Although she does not like chores, she sees the significance of them and wants to make that part of life a habit.  Right now it's hard.
The best best best part... family unity.  I just feel we need this.  As a family.  With Steven working so much and I doing a lot of the taking care of the kids by myself it's caused some behavior issues to come up.  Sometimes I feel it's the influence of friends, and other things, not just Steven being gone, just a lot of things... but I feel we have a very small window of time to shape their little lives.  I can't wait to focus on that 100%.
The icing on the cake is Steven won't have to work so much!!! He can be around more. 
We'll miss the church school soooo much and I know I'll miss teaching there, but we'll be around a lot.  Who knows, we may only homeschool a couple years.  We just know it's right for us right now.

I really do see God's hand in this.  A few years ago if you asked me about homeschooling I'd look at you and say "NO WAY! I need a break from my kids, i couldn't handle it!!"  Things started transforming in me a couple years ago.  It started after I read I book called Family Driven Faith.  It totally changed how I thought and did things. We started having family Bible studies together (I need to start doing that again!!!!) and praying together as a family. 
My next thought on homeschooling was, that I felt it was one of the best options for our kids, but had no desire whatsoever. I was terrified of the possibility.  Then the kids started asking to homeschool.  We didn't feel that their reasons for wanting to homeschool were the right reasons and didn't feel it was time to pull them out yet. Steven started feeling the weight of working extra to pay for the school and asked me if I'd ever consider homeschooling.  I still didn't want to even though I thought it might be best.  I felt really guilty about that.  In fact I thought about blogging about how guilty I felt that I didn't want to homeschool... I wanted to want to so bad.  I didn't blog about it, though, because I was so ashamed that I couldn't say it.
It was May, this year.  Something switched in me.  I just said... Okay.  We're going to do it.  Steven got super excited.  He really wants to be a big part of it.  Having a high schooler, I'll need him to be a big part!  I was still scared, but thought I'd start talking to people that are doing it successfully WITH a large family.  I have many friends that are doing it and loving it at this very moment.  Friends with 5, 6, and 7 children.  If they can do it, and do it well... I can too! That's where it took off. I am now SO excited! I do have some healthy fear though.. haha... it will be a new experience and I know it won't be all sunshine and rainbows.  The first year will be the hardest.  We'll make mistakes with curriculum... some days things iwll just not work out.  Overall though, from what I've heard, it will be very rewarding.  Not only that, but a number of my homeschooling friends say they'd never want to (see above) every morning, haha! 
It was just like God gave me what I needed when the time was right to be able to make this decision.  It is well thought out, we've literally been discussing it for a few years and are not even rushing into it this year.  With having Joshua being born in the summer and Steven still having to go to school a ton this year we just didn't feel it was the right time.  Luckily the church school is an awesome place for our kids. :)

On a side note.... hat business is going great! It's like the first year, again! Last year was slow.  I hardly have time to knit, but I am plugging away, slowly. 
I started taking piano lessons with Wendy... I LOVE piano lessons.  I really look forward to Fridays. :)
Oh and one more thing... instead of Thoughts on Thursday I am going to do Thankful Thursday, I got the idea from Bri, Shelby's daughter... it's such an awesome thing to do and I am totally doing it! It'll probably only happen like once every couple months, but so worth it!
Well, I better sign off for now... hoping I can get on here more often!

Monday, October 1, 2012

Joshua's Birth Story

This has taken me forever to write... but here's the best I can do!
Anyway, So....  on July 5, we went into the hospital for the induction. 
I was dilated to 4cm when we got to the hospital. I might have been in early labor already, I was cramping and contracting all day on the 4th it just wasn't too regular. When I got to the hospital I was having some contractions but they weren't real consistant. They were just stronger than before.
The nurse asked me about my birth plan and I told her about the cord clamping thing (I wanted to not clamp the cord for 3 minutes so he could get as much of his cord blood as possible) and that I want the pitocin set real low. She set it on a 2.
It didn't really seem to affect my contractions a whole lot, they were not really more frequent but a little more regular. I probably sat that way for about 2 hours.
Next the anestesiologist (sp?) showed up for my epidural... I so wanted to try it natural, but I was SO worried about doing with pitocin AND I could tell with the little contractions i was having that it was back labor. They weren't real painful at all... just crampy, but my back was hurting pretty bad.
The epi went fine, at first, but then when I laid down my heartrate shot up to 120 and my bp dropped to 80 over something... um scary... and AWFUL. So they had to give me meds to make my bp go up... how ironic. It was awful. Steven and the kids said I lost all the color from my face, I felt nautious... and dizzy.. ick. 
 Then I felt GUILTY! Like such a wimp for needing the epi that I just put myself and poor Joshua through that! I have never had a reaction like that before.
At the same time my Dr showed up to break my water.. he said I was 5-6cm (with no pain up until that point!). After that the contractions sped up and were on top of each other. Then I was thankful for the epi. I don't know if I could have done it! I mean I know I could have, but they were constant! So they lowered my pit down to a 1 and that slowed them down. They were still pretty close together though... I think it was probably 3 hours before I was a 10... but right about that time Joshua's heartrate dropped down to a 60 which was scary. My Dr wasn't there yet, but I told the nurse that if things didn't change fast I was pushing the baby out!! Luckily she was a nurse experienced with delivering babies. Also, his heartrate went back to normal pretty fast. It just freaked me out for a second there. I felt so helpless!
Then the Dr got there and I pushed through 2 contractions and Joshua came out sunny side up! Little stinker... but it wasn't as hard as pushing Elise out so I was glad. I bet that is why my back was hurting.
The Dr put him on my chest... that was my first experience with that and it's SO wonderful! I can't believe I had 6 babies whisked away from me right after birth and didn't even know what I was missing! :(frown He was slimy and gooey, but I didn't care.  He screamed and screamed and screamed.  He was NOT happy! LOL




 He waited over 3 minutes and asked me if I was ready for him to clamp the cord... I felt happy with that (I don't think it was done pulsating at that point though) so I told him it was okay. Then I just held him for the longest time.  He SCREAMED! Eventually the nurses took him from me to get him somewhat cleaned up and weighed and then gave him right back! He weighed 7lbs 5oz... same as his bday 7-5! :)
It was overall such a great experience and I felt a lot more in control of it... they asked ME what i wanted before they did everything compared to the past where they just ran the show. All it took was just speaking up and telling them what I wanted.




Also Katie and Danielle were in there the whole time... this is the 3rd sibling they have seen delivered.  They did great.  Katie had a moment of not feeling very well, but after some rest and food in her tummy she felt better.  She was the photographer.  Danielle was hilarious, had all kinds of funny stuff to say.  Stinker.  :)




 My regrets of course were having to use the pitocin (probably breaking my water would have been enough) and of course the epi. Don't know what I'll do in the future if there's any more babies.... At this point I still think I'd get the epidural, but who knows, if I actually went into labor on my own mabye I coudl do it.
I really enjoyed the time in hospital, the food -- YUMMY!, the nurses... I just love them.... the time alone with baby, sleeping... It was all great. I miss it, haha!

I think that's it, in a nutshell!

Beautiful Baby!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Friday's Facts: Summer is almost over

It's been forever since I have blogged!!
Joshua, our sweet baby boy, is six weeks old already! I promise I will blog his birth story here soon!
Summer is almost over.  It's been fun and eventful.
Let's see...
We started the summer off with a trip to North Dakota to see Grandma Marie.  That was fun! Then the kids had swimming lessons and went to vacation Bible school. 


 We had a big fourth of July party and TONS of fireworks and the very next day our wonderful Joshua Mark came into this world!


My seven wonderful kids!

Then Gary and Cathy came for a visit to help out with the baby and during that time we celebrated Matthew's 4th Birthday!

At the end of the week, they left and brought Katie, Danielle and Johanna with them to CO.  They were gone two weeks.  I missed them sooo much!!!!
We went and picked them up when Joshua was only 3 1/2 weeks old and spent a few days in CO.  It was wonderful seeing my Mom, Adrielle, Ezra, Asa and Dean.  Also I got some time with my seester Amber and got to see her kids, Poppy, Zeke, Fiona and Vivian.  We also briefly saw Kayla and Cayden.  He's getting so big! 
Here are all the Grandkids on my Mom's side. :)


The girls got to go swimming, a lot, while visiting Grandma and Grandpa, and fishing with Daddy and Grandpa.  Fun times. :) Here are Katie and Danielle in the lake on their fishing trip!

After we got home, Katie, Danielle and Juliette ran a little vacation Bible school for the little kids at our church.  It was so great watching them teach! Danielle was in charge of the 2, 3 and 4 year olds with the help of Claire, Ada, and Jesse White.  She did such a great job.  She was so responsible.


Katie and Juliette taught the 5 and 7 year olds.  Katie taught them Jesus Loves Me in sign language.  What a great teacher she is!!!  I was so proud of them, to see what servant's hearts they had.  They put so much work into this and it turned out very successful!


This last week we've been just running errands and selling coupon books mostly.  We have beat our record for previous years.  I think we are at like 39 books sold now.  So, if we win again we'll be getting a $50 gift card to anywhere we choose in the book.


Today I took the kids to Runza.  There is an outside playground there that I never really noticed before.  It was perfect weather-wise and the kids were able to burn off some energy.

I feel we've grown a lot this summer.  As a family and as individuals.  I am sad it's almost over.  The school year opens a new chapter in our lives.  I will be at the school 3 mornings a week teaching the primary students.  I will have 6 girls between 2nd and 5th grade.  I am the primary teacher for Science, but I will also be helping with Bible, spelling, handwriting, and in the kindergarten classroom where Alaina will be! :)

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Words on Wednesday:39wks

39 wks tomorrow that is.
Tomorrow is the BIG day.  I will be induced if Joshua does not make his appearance before then!
So, in other news... my last two OB appts were eventful! First, last Friday I went in and asked to be checked.  Dr Stearnes couldn't find my cervix... then said baby's head was to the side.  That freaked me out a bit because a tranverse baby could mean a C-section. I then asked if having a full bladder mattered... and it does! LOL! So I went pee... got a quick u/s and yep, baby is head down.  Thank goodness.  Then Dr checked me.  He said I was a "good" 3cm but I asked him to stretch me if possible.  He wouldn't sweep (or strip) my membranes.   He did stretch me to a tight 4cm though. :) I also found out at this appt that I am GBS+ so I'll need antibiotics during labor.  Most likely I really don't, but in the slight chance that I have the "bad form" of GBS they like to play it safe.  Err...

Then I went in again on Tuesday (yesterday).  I was a "good" 4cm and I asked again if he'd sweep the membranes since I'd be getting induced in less than 48 hours. He did agree to it... it hurt a little but wasnt' awful by any means. I really don't want pitocin, but Dr insists that it's best because of my hbp spikes. I asked if he'd just break my water, but he doesn't think that will be enough to jump start things.  He did agree to only give me the lowest dose of pit and not increase it until after my water is broken if I am not progressing, which I doubt will happen.  They call it a "whiff" of pitocin.  Let's hope that works.  I am TRYING to do things as natural as I can.
While he was checking me and sweeiping my membranes he realized that baby has a limb (probably a hand) right up there by his head.  He said that it COULD be dangerous and increase the risk of cord prolapse (which is an automatic C-section) because the head being there prevents the head from totally plugging the space where my cervix is opening leaving a small space for the cord to squeeze though.  So he is going to try and manipulate things to get baby to move before he breaks my water.  Otherwise I"ll be giving birth to a head AND a limb at the same time and that really makes me want an epidural! I was thinking about maybe not getting one if I go into labor on my own.  If I am induced I probably will. 
Today is the 4th of July and Steven has a HUGE party planned for the people at the church.  It's going to be a great time, but I could have the baby instead! Poor Steven.  Although it would make for great memories.  A 4th of July baby.  Time will tell!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Take on Tuesday: 37w5d "acupuncture"

Today I went to the chiropractor and got acupuncture, the kind designed to help induce labor.  Of course it's not going to do anything if my body and baby are not ready... but here's to hoping, right?! Yesterday I had my 37wk check.  I was 3cm dilated.  A tight 3 he said.  I go in again on Friday and I've asked him to check me again that day, hoping something will happen and I'll have baby Joshua by Saturday June 30. 
My blood pressure has been fluctuating quite a bit.  With a range of  like 120's over 70's and 150's over 90's.  Usually it just sits in the 130 over 80 ish range though... so a safe number.  It's crazy when it spikes though.  Not sure if it's just our blood pressure machine we have at home because it's always been super good at the Dr office.  Who knows!  I got a few more things done on my list too.  My goal is to finish all those things by Friday - just in case! :) Hoping still! Then if i don't have baby I'll have a whole new list of things to get done before July 6th.... which is the day Dr Stearnes wants to induce if I haven't had baby yet.  He's worried about my medical history, the pre-eclampsia, hypertenstion and hypothyroidism.  Wow, I am a hot mess.  lol.   I think it would be fine to wait it out assuming my bp doesn't spike by then, but he doesn't.  I think it's more for convenience really.. but I really don't want to fight it.  I feel I got what I wanted with having the cord not clamped and cut for 3 minutes (a whole other story) and honestly... thinking I'll be holding Joshua in my arms in 10 days is soooooooo wonderful right now I can't even imagine arguing.  One day I might kick myself though.  Anyway here's the new and improved list.

1) Buy him a carseat
2) Clean out the bassinette and decide if I can use it still - I can!! :)

3) Put newborn and up to 3mos clothes in his dresser
4) Before that I need to completely empty it out, some of Elise's things are still in there
5) Make "BOY" curtains
6) find a pattern and make a red bumper for the crib
7) maybe even make a wall hanging with remaining fabric ((tomorrow!!))
8) Clean carpets, even if with just water
9) organize medicine cabinet
10) Clean out fridge
11) Make more hats and diaper covers ((on going))
12) Organize Matthew's closet
12) organize Johanna and Alaina's closet
13) wipe down walls and baseboards
14) windex windows
16) organize laundry room
17) hang pictures in basement
18) get all kids newest pics done
a. Katie b. Danielle c. Johanna d. Alaina e. Matthew f. Elise
19) get maternity pictures done
20) pack hospital bag
21) organize garage the best I can
22) organize my craft and clothes closet
23) clean out van
24) buy newborn diapers and pads
25) organize pantry
26) install carseats, including infant
27) pre-register at hospital
28) get all the kids pics in envelopes and addressed to the people they need to go to ((on going))
29) organize top of fridge
30) Vaccuum stairs
31) clean out couch and wash couch cushions
32) give kids haircuts or trims



Thursday, June 21, 2012

Thursday's Thoughts: updated list

1) Buy him a carseat
2) Clean out the bassinette and decide if I can use it still - I can!! :)

3) Put newborn and up to 3mos clothes in his dresser
4) Before that I need to completely empty it out, some of Elise's things are still in there
5) Make "BOY" curtains
6) find a pattern and make a red bumper for the crib
7) maybe even make a wall hanging with remaining fabric
8) Clean carpets, even if with just water
9) organize medicine cabinet
10) Clean out fridge
11) Make more hats and diaper covers ((on going))
12) Organize Matthew's closet
12) organize Johanna and Alaina's closet
13) wipe down walls and baseboards
14) windex windows
16) organize laundry room
17) hang pictures in basement
18) get all kids newest pics done ((on going))
a. Katie b. Danielle c. Johanna d. Alaina e. Matthew f. Elise
19) get maternity pictures done
20) pack hospital bag
21) organize garage the best I can
22) organize my craft and clothes closet
23) clean out van
24) buy newborn diapers and pads
25) organize pantry
26) install carseats, including infant
27) pre-register at hospital
28) get all the kids pics in envelopes and addressed to the people they need to go to ((on going))
29) organize top of fridge
30) Vaccuum stairs
31) clean out couch and wash couch cushions
32) give kids haircuts or trims

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Words on Wednesday: 37wks

So close, yet so far away still! :)
I had an appt yesterday and I was only 2cm (barely) dilated and 50% effaced. At 36 1/2 wks, that's about right for me I guess, but I thought FOR SURE that things would be a little further along! I have had more contractions with more discomfort than previous pregnancies at this point.  At least as far as I can remember.  I even had one contraction wake me up because it was on the verge of being a painful one.  That has NEVER happened before.
Oh well....
Other signs would be, more pressure on my tailbone, especially during contractions.  Also the need to go to the bathroom constantly, lol.... I am still hoping for a June 30 baby, but the way things look it probably won't happen.  For one, the earliest I have ever gone into labor on my own was 39wks and 2 days.  I have had two pregnancies make it to almost 41 weeks (one of those was induced so who knows how long I would have been pregnant) and 2 pregnancies that were induced at 39ish weeks (so I know I didn't have them early, obviously... and 1 pregnancy induced at 38wks and 2 days... I am sure I would have gone at least another week with her as well.... so my hopes are shattered of a natural delivery on that day.  I'd be 38wks and 2 days. 
As far as an induction, I am not hoping for something to go wrong, but the only thing that probably would, would be my blood pressure and that's been surprisingly low (normal for me when I am not pregnant) lately.  So... IDK! Time will tell! Meanwhile, I might just try and bounce on the trampoline in the evenings (after dark, lol) to help things along.  Hopefully next Tues I have better news! I'll be almost 38 wks at that point so I better be more dilated!!!
In the meantime... just keep checking things off the list!

1) Buy him a carseat
2) Clean out the bassinette and decide if I can use it still - I can!! :)

3) Put newborn and up to 3mos clothes in his dresser
4) Before that I need to completely empty it out, some of Elise's things are still in there
5) Make "BOY" curtains
6) find a pattern and make a red bumper for the crib
7) maybe even make a wall hanging with remaining fabric
8) Clean carpets, even if with just water
9) organize medicine cabinet
10) Clean out fridge
11) Make more hats and diaper covers
12) Organize Matthew's closet
12) organize Johanna and Alaina's closet
13) wipe down walls and baseboards
14) windex windows
16) organize laundry room
17) hang pictures in basement
18) get all kids newest pics done
      a. Katie b. Danielle c. Johanna d. Alaina e. Matthew f. Elise
19) get maternity pictures done
20) pack hospital bag
21) organize garage the best I can
22) organize my craft and clothes closet
23) clean out van
24) buy newborn diapers and nursing pads
25) organize pantry
26) install carseats, including infant
27) preregister at hospital
28) get all the kids pics in envelopes and addressed to the people they need to go to
(when baby is born, all I have to do is add his in there and send them off!)
29) organize top of fridge
30) Vaccuum stairs
31) clean out couch and wash couch cushions
32) give kids haircuts or trims
a. Katie b. Danielle c. Johanna d. Alaina e. Matthew