Yep... only 9dpo and I tested this morning. Of course it was negative... but I just couldn't help myself!!! I really hope I get those wondfo tests early.. I'd test every morning if I had those. Especially since they are probably more sensitive than the dollar tree tests. I will do my best to at least wait 2 days to test again, preferably longer!!!
KMFX!!!!! I really want a June 9, 2012 baby!!!! (haha.. with my luck this will be the ONE time I have an early baby and he/she will be born in May!!! lol)
Friday, September 23, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Thursday's Thoughts: 2ww
I am in the 2 week wait. AF is due in exactly a week, so really I expect it in about 5 days IF I am not pregnant.
I totally abandoned my "boy diet". I was supposed to continue it just in case I am not pregnant. Which I probably am not. It's been a weird month. I started bleeding mid-cycle.. totally threw me off so I googled it. Sure enough, it can be very normal to have ovulatory bleeding. NEVER in my life has that happened. So... it provided me a window of time, but at the same time, I just don't know. I just "have a feeling" I am not pg, but then again, I've been surprised before. I think I might test in 2 or 3 days. I have a couple dollar tree tests to use. I also ordered some more wondfo test strips that should get here in about a week. I may or may not need them.... obviously I feel I will, or else I wouldn't have ordered them this late in the game. Sigh.... the days go by so slow. I do wish I would have continued the boy diet because I was actually losing weight doing it!!! (although many people claim to gain). I think it was the cream of tartar and baking soda drink that just took my appetite away! lol! I was eating pretty healthy.. the worst part was the chips, but the chips I was eating were really high in potassium so I justified it. Lots of salsa and salads though, and that is good. I need to start that again.. if anything, to lose some more weight before I have to pack on the lbs again. I really really hope I am pg though because then I will get a June baby! A totally different month for baby #7! Yes... I get that I have issues and that I am a dork... lol... but I can't help it! haha!! If I don't end up pg this time, as long as I get my period early enough I have a chance of having a June baby next cycle too. I just don't want to be tempted to induce early just to have a certain birth month for my baby. I know that is incredibly selfish of me. If I never would have induced, ever.. I bet Alaina would have been a Nov baby, like Danielle. She was induced just short of 2 wks early because the Dr was concerned she was not growing. She was though, and if I would have been adamant about waiting to have her, I am sure she would have missed oct all together. We didn't know though and did what we thought was best. There's a chance that Matthew could have been an aug baby (I was due the 28th, I think, and he could have been a couple days late, easily) and Elise possibly could have been a June baby... I was due the 29th. I kind of doubt it though because I was already dilated to 4cm the day they induced me on the 21st. :) So, who knows when their real "birthdays" would have been if I wouldn't have induced. Danielle and Johanna were the only two to not be induced. I really don't want to induce again if I don't have to. There's a lot of things I want to do differently. If I get my period on cd28 that will be on the 29th of this month which would be me due July 5th or 6th... hence the reason I *might* be tempted to induce.
Sigh... I am jumping way ahead of myself. Fat little fuzzy warm squishy babies are just way too addicting. :)
Signing off... I have 9 children in my care (watching Alisha's 3 for the night) I should go check on them... although I know they are okay.. :) By the way, I seem to blog on Thursdays a lot... just seems to be my day.
I totally abandoned my "boy diet". I was supposed to continue it just in case I am not pregnant. Which I probably am not. It's been a weird month. I started bleeding mid-cycle.. totally threw me off so I googled it. Sure enough, it can be very normal to have ovulatory bleeding. NEVER in my life has that happened. So... it provided me a window of time, but at the same time, I just don't know. I just "have a feeling" I am not pg, but then again, I've been surprised before. I think I might test in 2 or 3 days. I have a couple dollar tree tests to use. I also ordered some more wondfo test strips that should get here in about a week. I may or may not need them.... obviously I feel I will, or else I wouldn't have ordered them this late in the game. Sigh.... the days go by so slow. I do wish I would have continued the boy diet because I was actually losing weight doing it!!! (although many people claim to gain). I think it was the cream of tartar and baking soda drink that just took my appetite away! lol! I was eating pretty healthy.. the worst part was the chips, but the chips I was eating were really high in potassium so I justified it. Lots of salsa and salads though, and that is good. I need to start that again.. if anything, to lose some more weight before I have to pack on the lbs again. I really really hope I am pg though because then I will get a June baby! A totally different month for baby #7! Yes... I get that I have issues and that I am a dork... lol... but I can't help it! haha!! If I don't end up pg this time, as long as I get my period early enough I have a chance of having a June baby next cycle too. I just don't want to be tempted to induce early just to have a certain birth month for my baby. I know that is incredibly selfish of me. If I never would have induced, ever.. I bet Alaina would have been a Nov baby, like Danielle. She was induced just short of 2 wks early because the Dr was concerned she was not growing. She was though, and if I would have been adamant about waiting to have her, I am sure she would have missed oct all together. We didn't know though and did what we thought was best. There's a chance that Matthew could have been an aug baby (I was due the 28th, I think, and he could have been a couple days late, easily) and Elise possibly could have been a June baby... I was due the 29th. I kind of doubt it though because I was already dilated to 4cm the day they induced me on the 21st. :) So, who knows when their real "birthdays" would have been if I wouldn't have induced. Danielle and Johanna were the only two to not be induced. I really don't want to induce again if I don't have to. There's a lot of things I want to do differently. If I get my period on cd28 that will be on the 29th of this month which would be me due July 5th or 6th... hence the reason I *might* be tempted to induce.
Sigh... I am jumping way ahead of myself. Fat little fuzzy warm squishy babies are just way too addicting. :)
Signing off... I have 9 children in my care (watching Alisha's 3 for the night) I should go check on them... although I know they are okay.. :) By the way, I seem to blog on Thursdays a lot... just seems to be my day.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Thursday's Thoughts: My little talker!
Elise Josephine Claire is just too smart!! Haha I love it!!!! Only Danielle came close to talking this much.. but I think Lisey understands more than she did at this age.
She follows simple instructions like, "go get your shoes" "get down" "sit down" "get your diaper" "throw it in the trash", etc. She understands if I ask her simple questions too... "do you want to eat?" To which she responds, "eat" (giggle giggle) and then runs to her chair. LOL...
This may not be that much, but after Alaina's speech difficulties (at 2yrs she wasn't even following simple instructions) I am thrilled!!! Matthew at Elise's age (15m) seemed to be following in Alaina's footsteps, which I think was 8 or 9 words at 15m, but only regularly using 2 or 3. Then he had a language explosion at about 17months so I was no longer concerned. Katie started early, saying 10-12 words at a year.. but then really slowed down after that and didn't really speak in complete sentences until she was 3. She was smart, could name all the colors, shapes, numbers, and letters of the alphabet if I just pointed to them when she had just turned two.. it was joining the words that was harder. Johanna just seemed to learn at a steady pace, not especially fast, but she wasn't behind either...
Elise is saying, or I should say, has said over 50 words now. She doesn't use all those words regularly, but everyday she is added more and more to her daily vocabulary.
Another thing is she repeats everything! We were laughing because in the car she was jabbering away saying cute things and Katie said, "you are so CUTE!" I said, jokingly, "say, 'I know'" Sure enough in this little itty bitty baby voice I hear "I know"... haha.. so clear... I totally didn't expect it.
She is so articulate too, she puts a lot of emphasis on the last letter of her words. So instead of nah-nah she says, "ny-nighT" with a very clear distict tah at the end, lol. If the word has an s she exaggerates it like 'sssss'. So nice is "nisssss" (long I)... and her k's are really exaggerated too, as in drinK or stinK, lol. So, anyway, she's a lot of fun. I look forward to other surprises she brings us, her personality is so full of life.. and mischief.
She climbs on everything and then looks at me and says, "doowwwnnn" (She seems to exaggerate the o's in her words too, and puts her mouth in a very pronounced circle while she says them).. hehe... she's so silly.
Recently Katie taught her to count. If you say "one..." she'll say, "two, det!" lol... it's so cute. I know she doesn't know how to count yet, but it's still fun to hear. I asked her to say "abc" yesterday and she said it with no problem.. I love it!! Her voice is so little, and so is she! She's this tiny 19lb baby, running and climbing on everything and talks talks talks!!
She's also trying to sing. If the kids sing "oh happy day" she'll say, "happy, happy" and throw in a "day" every once in awhile. She sings with the backpack song on Dora and tries to sing with the theme song as well.
Well... that's enough of my Elise brag, she's just so much fun and I never want to forget these days with her.
She follows simple instructions like, "go get your shoes" "get down" "sit down" "get your diaper" "throw it in the trash", etc. She understands if I ask her simple questions too... "do you want to eat?" To which she responds, "eat" (giggle giggle) and then runs to her chair. LOL...
This may not be that much, but after Alaina's speech difficulties (at 2yrs she wasn't even following simple instructions) I am thrilled!!! Matthew at Elise's age (15m) seemed to be following in Alaina's footsteps, which I think was 8 or 9 words at 15m, but only regularly using 2 or 3. Then he had a language explosion at about 17months so I was no longer concerned. Katie started early, saying 10-12 words at a year.. but then really slowed down after that and didn't really speak in complete sentences until she was 3. She was smart, could name all the colors, shapes, numbers, and letters of the alphabet if I just pointed to them when she had just turned two.. it was joining the words that was harder. Johanna just seemed to learn at a steady pace, not especially fast, but she wasn't behind either...
Elise is saying, or I should say, has said over 50 words now. She doesn't use all those words regularly, but everyday she is added more and more to her daily vocabulary.
Another thing is she repeats everything! We were laughing because in the car she was jabbering away saying cute things and Katie said, "you are so CUTE!" I said, jokingly, "say, 'I know'" Sure enough in this little itty bitty baby voice I hear "I know"... haha.. so clear... I totally didn't expect it.
She is so articulate too, she puts a lot of emphasis on the last letter of her words. So instead of nah-nah she says, "ny-nighT" with a very clear distict tah at the end, lol. If the word has an s she exaggerates it like 'sssss'. So nice is "nisssss" (long I)... and her k's are really exaggerated too, as in drinK or stinK, lol. So, anyway, she's a lot of fun. I look forward to other surprises she brings us, her personality is so full of life.. and mischief.
She climbs on everything and then looks at me and says, "doowwwnnn" (She seems to exaggerate the o's in her words too, and puts her mouth in a very pronounced circle while she says them).. hehe... she's so silly.
Recently Katie taught her to count. If you say "one..." she'll say, "two, det!" lol... it's so cute. I know she doesn't know how to count yet, but it's still fun to hear. I asked her to say "abc" yesterday and she said it with no problem.. I love it!! Her voice is so little, and so is she! She's this tiny 19lb baby, running and climbing on everything and talks talks talks!!
She's also trying to sing. If the kids sing "oh happy day" she'll say, "happy, happy" and throw in a "day" every once in awhile. She sings with the backpack song on Dora and tries to sing with the theme song as well.
Well... that's enough of my Elise brag, she's just so much fun and I never want to forget these days with her.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
A Little Something on Sunday: Swaying Blue
It's kind of fun having a secret.... not a total secret, because some people know... but you know, the baby thing.
I am sure that everyone who knows me suspects we'll have more... but I am going to keep denying it until I can't deny it anymore. If I have to suck in after I am pregnant I will. Don't worry I won't do anything to hurt the baby, like wear a girdle or anything... but I still feel the same as I did before, I don't want certain people to know. I can't bear to see the "shocked but disappointed" or "what the heck?!" or "you are crazy" look on people's faces. I guess I assume that the later they find out the more accepting they'll be... especially if I can make it to the gender u/s... can you imagine, announcing we are having a baby.. but not just any baby, but, "It's a ___!" how fun would that be?
Which brings me......
Obviously I'd like another boy.. but another girl would be fine, I honestly believe that Elise has cured me of gender disappointment.. or maybe it was the fact that I did have Matthew finally, IDK... Either way, I'd prefer a boy because Matthew could have a little brother... that would be awesome.
I believe that God will give us who we are supposed to have, but I also know that sin in this world, the way we eat, toxins we are exposed to have degraded things, like our bodies. There is a lot of things out of balance, including a person's PH balance. If you are acidic you are more likely to have a girl; alkaline, boy. Can't remember why exactly, but when I read it, it made sense. Nothing is 100% and God can get through ph balance, but I do believe what we put in our bodies has certain consequences. (not that having girls is a bad consequence.. ;)).
So... I am trying to "sway" blue. Meaning, i am trying to raise my alkaline levels AND increase the potassium I get everyday. Potassium helps too. Again, I don't remember why.. haha. It's so much potassium though... like almost 5,000mg a day. The most I could do was yesterday and that was about 3,500mg. I could have eaten more salsa and spinach or had a baked potato.. in fact just one baked potato would have brought me almost to the level I needed to be, but I just wasn't hungry. I could have made myself eat, but I am not taking this thing to those extremes. Just doing what I can do and letting God do the rest. :) I really pray he lets us have another baby boy.
I am on CD 10 now... the days are dragging by. I can't wait to test....
And for some reason, the secret thing, is just a lot fun for me right now.. haha... In the past I couldn't wait to tell people. The longest I waited was w/ Elise and that was a week!!! This time it will be different unless someone else ruins it for me. Which is very possible and I guess that's ok. No matter what I'll be happy about our new little blessing even if a few people are not. I am not keeping it from everyone so I know it's likely to get out, on FB or by word of mouth.
When I was briefly pregnant last month Steven told his parents, told them not to tell anyone and later that day I was getting messages on fb... and Grandma Lou wrote something in a comment on my wall!! haha!! Sweet Grandma, she didn't know. :) We'll have to really express our concerns to the people we tell (which will include Katie and Danielle) and go from there! All we can do is hope for the best.
I am sure that everyone who knows me suspects we'll have more... but I am going to keep denying it until I can't deny it anymore. If I have to suck in after I am pregnant I will. Don't worry I won't do anything to hurt the baby, like wear a girdle or anything... but I still feel the same as I did before, I don't want certain people to know. I can't bear to see the "shocked but disappointed" or "what the heck?!" or "you are crazy" look on people's faces. I guess I assume that the later they find out the more accepting they'll be... especially if I can make it to the gender u/s... can you imagine, announcing we are having a baby.. but not just any baby, but, "It's a ___!" how fun would that be?
Which brings me......
Obviously I'd like another boy.. but another girl would be fine, I honestly believe that Elise has cured me of gender disappointment.. or maybe it was the fact that I did have Matthew finally, IDK... Either way, I'd prefer a boy because Matthew could have a little brother... that would be awesome.
I believe that God will give us who we are supposed to have, but I also know that sin in this world, the way we eat, toxins we are exposed to have degraded things, like our bodies. There is a lot of things out of balance, including a person's PH balance. If you are acidic you are more likely to have a girl; alkaline, boy. Can't remember why exactly, but when I read it, it made sense. Nothing is 100% and God can get through ph balance, but I do believe what we put in our bodies has certain consequences. (not that having girls is a bad consequence.. ;)).
So... I am trying to "sway" blue. Meaning, i am trying to raise my alkaline levels AND increase the potassium I get everyday. Potassium helps too. Again, I don't remember why.. haha. It's so much potassium though... like almost 5,000mg a day. The most I could do was yesterday and that was about 3,500mg. I could have eaten more salsa and spinach or had a baked potato.. in fact just one baked potato would have brought me almost to the level I needed to be, but I just wasn't hungry. I could have made myself eat, but I am not taking this thing to those extremes. Just doing what I can do and letting God do the rest. :) I really pray he lets us have another baby boy.
I am on CD 10 now... the days are dragging by. I can't wait to test....
And for some reason, the secret thing, is just a lot fun for me right now.. haha... In the past I couldn't wait to tell people. The longest I waited was w/ Elise and that was a week!!! This time it will be different unless someone else ruins it for me. Which is very possible and I guess that's ok. No matter what I'll be happy about our new little blessing even if a few people are not. I am not keeping it from everyone so I know it's likely to get out, on FB or by word of mouth.
When I was briefly pregnant last month Steven told his parents, told them not to tell anyone and later that day I was getting messages on fb... and Grandma Lou wrote something in a comment on my wall!! haha!! Sweet Grandma, she didn't know. :) We'll have to really express our concerns to the people we tell (which will include Katie and Danielle) and go from there! All we can do is hope for the best.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Friday's Facts: Oh... that explains it!
So, you know how I wrote about no motivation and just overall feeling "blah"? Well......... today I unexpectedly got a visit from AF! I am a couple days early, if you can even call it that, considering nothing is normal right now... but at least I am closer to being regular. That does explain how I was feeling though. I always have a lack of motivation, but over the last week it's been so much worse, not only that but my appetite increased too. I wasn't even hungry, it was more the cravings that got me. At least I know why I was being that way, I am not crazy after all!!!
So, no May 2012 baby for us.. :) Not that I would be against it, but if God wants us to wait a little longer I am def. okay with that too! ((A June baby would be neat though, considering I don't have a purple stone for my future mother's ring.)) It's definitely silly, and I know if we keep having babies, I will have to double up the months at some point, lol... but for now, it's just kind of fun that we have a different birth month for all of them. Steven and I are January, then we have Apr, May, July, Sept, Oct, and Nov... not in that order though. :)
So today, Sept 2, marks cycle day 1 for me.
So, no May 2012 baby for us.. :) Not that I would be against it, but if God wants us to wait a little longer I am def. okay with that too! ((A June baby would be neat though, considering I don't have a purple stone for my future mother's ring.)) It's definitely silly, and I know if we keep having babies, I will have to double up the months at some point, lol... but for now, it's just kind of fun that we have a different birth month for all of them. Steven and I are January, then we have Apr, May, July, Sept, Oct, and Nov... not in that order though. :)
So today, Sept 2, marks cycle day 1 for me.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Thursdays Thoughts: Where's the motivation?
It's September 1st.... I always like the 1st of every month because I feel it's a new beginning. :) Every day we get a fresh start, but on the 1st it just feels like things should change.
Only.... I have ZERO motivation!!! I know that things need to be done, but I have the hardest time getting moving! I feel guilty, too, because Steven works so hard. I should work just as hard at home.
Everyday is the same thing, Steven has been working so much that there is never a change to anything, it's just me and the kids. Not that that is bad, I LOVE the kids, but never seeing him, never getting out of the house, and never doing anything different is really taking a toll on my days! For this reason I look forward to the routine that school is going to bring. I will actually be busy again! Have places to go, running the kids to and from school. Not only that, but with fall I hope I also get some hat orders because then I'll have to knit and with that comes running to Michael's every other day!
I'll miss the kids though... when they go back to school, that is.... this has been the longest summer break ever (almost 4 months) and although there were rough patches w/ behavior and just general boredom, I have enjoyed them.
I want to be able to homeschool, in fact I feel pretty awful that I don't have the deepest desire to. It makes me feel like a crappy mom. It has nothing to do with not wanting to be around my kids, or thinking they are annoying, or even that I can't handle them... it's that we don't get out enough! That's not necessarily bad, but we don't really do anything at home either. Most days consist of getting up.. some kids watch TV, some are on the computer. I am on and off of the computer, randomly eat.. more TV, Wii, or computer time. Then I make everyone clean a little. Eat more, clean up.. laundry. Bible Study and then bed.. Wake up and repeat. When we were doing swimming lessons it was nice, we were forced to get moving and get out of the house... the whole day felt better because of that!
I try take them to the dollar store from time to time.. but not often... or to get slushies... and once every blue moon, we've gone to the park. It's mostly been too hot for that this summer.
Most days, the house continually gets messier and messier until the motivation jump-starts in me.. I've noticed it happens about 4:00... then I can get things done fast... get the kids on board with helping. If Steven's working late, that means the house is much cleaner than if he got home at 5. I'd rather him home at 5, especially since that hasn't happened in 2 weeks, but I do like that I get more stuff done in the evenings if he's not home. I LOVED when he worked swings when he was on guard duty. I could get out, run errands, do whatever in the mornings before he went to work and then I had motivation while he was gone to clean.
He is so tired and deserves better from me. I can see him just worn out... everyday a little more energy and positivity just seems to fizzle out of him... it's sad.. I feel there is nothing I can do. I know that this is not the time to say anything negative at all to him.
In fact I am taking on this challenge on fb, it's called 30 Day Husband Encouragement Challenge.
I didn't even know about it when I wrote my status update today... which is, "
Only.... I have ZERO motivation!!! I know that things need to be done, but I have the hardest time getting moving! I feel guilty, too, because Steven works so hard. I should work just as hard at home.
Everyday is the same thing, Steven has been working so much that there is never a change to anything, it's just me and the kids. Not that that is bad, I LOVE the kids, but never seeing him, never getting out of the house, and never doing anything different is really taking a toll on my days! For this reason I look forward to the routine that school is going to bring. I will actually be busy again! Have places to go, running the kids to and from school. Not only that, but with fall I hope I also get some hat orders because then I'll have to knit and with that comes running to Michael's every other day!
I'll miss the kids though... when they go back to school, that is.... this has been the longest summer break ever (almost 4 months) and although there were rough patches w/ behavior and just general boredom, I have enjoyed them.
I want to be able to homeschool, in fact I feel pretty awful that I don't have the deepest desire to. It makes me feel like a crappy mom. It has nothing to do with not wanting to be around my kids, or thinking they are annoying, or even that I can't handle them... it's that we don't get out enough! That's not necessarily bad, but we don't really do anything at home either. Most days consist of getting up.. some kids watch TV, some are on the computer. I am on and off of the computer, randomly eat.. more TV, Wii, or computer time. Then I make everyone clean a little. Eat more, clean up.. laundry. Bible Study and then bed.. Wake up and repeat. When we were doing swimming lessons it was nice, we were forced to get moving and get out of the house... the whole day felt better because of that!
I try take them to the dollar store from time to time.. but not often... or to get slushies... and once every blue moon, we've gone to the park. It's mostly been too hot for that this summer.
Most days, the house continually gets messier and messier until the motivation jump-starts in me.. I've noticed it happens about 4:00... then I can get things done fast... get the kids on board with helping. If Steven's working late, that means the house is much cleaner than if he got home at 5. I'd rather him home at 5, especially since that hasn't happened in 2 weeks, but I do like that I get more stuff done in the evenings if he's not home. I LOVED when he worked swings when he was on guard duty. I could get out, run errands, do whatever in the mornings before he went to work and then I had motivation while he was gone to clean.
He is so tired and deserves better from me. I can see him just worn out... everyday a little more energy and positivity just seems to fizzle out of him... it's sad.. I feel there is nothing I can do. I know that this is not the time to say anything negative at all to him.
In fact I am taking on this challenge on fb, it's called 30 Day Husband Encouragement Challenge.
I didn't even know about it when I wrote my status update today... which is, "
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